No Excuses.

I’ve been lazy. Really lazy. I’ve been indulging for the last few weeks and now I’m done.

Knowing your body....

As per my last post, you’re all aware that I recently got my Indefinite Leave to Remain in the UK (which I’m totally psyched about!), but I spent the following week “celebrating“, which then culminated in 3 weeks of “celebration“. So can see where I’m going with this….

I’ve been making up one excuse after another about why I haven’t been to the gym or why I’m eating an entire plate of Mac & Cheese (besides it being delicious!), and the list goes on!

So, I had 2 wake up calls this week….the first occurred when I was walking into work – sans make-up & crazy hair – and I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Now, I’m the kind of person who usually just skims at their reflection and never really stops for a closer examination, so this came as quite a shock. The bright flourescent light didn’t help either! Well, it appears that my second chin has come back for a rendezvous with the original and they appear to be best buds at the moment; my belly – albeit very satisfied – is happily spilling over my jeans again; and my ass definitely has a plumper feel about it. All in all….not good.

The second wake up call was when I logged out of my Yahoo account and came across the following news story...

http://uk.health.lifestyle.yahoo.net/surprising-health-problems-of-being-obese.htm

To sum up, it basically lists surprising health problems linked to obesity. Out of the 10 problems listed, about 4 or 5 apply to me. I’m not giving it all away, so I’ll let you all guess which ones I’m referring to. It’s super scary though. I don’t want my life to revolve around damage control just because I’m lazy!

Now, I know I’ve said this a million times and you guys have heard me say this a million times, but I’ve got to get my fat arse back in gear! I’ve got a lot going for me at the moment (but that news for another post), and I’m feeling really positive. So, it’s back to the health grind.

There might be people out there reading this, who might feel tired of me repeating myself when it comes to all the resolutions I keep making, but please don’t disregard how difficult this really is. It’s a battle you fight with yourself every single day. It’s waking up with a positive mentality and making the best decisions you can every day. And sometimes you’ll have a bad day. It’s as simple as that.

I know I’ve also said this before, but it’s not the falling off the horse, but it’s whether you get back on that counts!

So true!

XXX

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The Truth of the Matter.

Obesity

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The honest truth is that I’ve spent the last year of my life half-heartedly trying to lose weight. Half-hearted isn’t good enough. I’ve become ashamed and embarrassed when I see people and they comment on me having lost some weight, because I know it should’ve been more. I accept their compliments, but I feel as if I’ve not just cheated them, but that I’ve cheated myself. I feel as though I’ve wasted a year just talking bull***t…..smoke and mirrors baby, smoke and mirrors!

The thing is, I know why I should lose weight. There are so many reasons for me to just do this, but my heart’s just not in it. I was doing really well, but the last 2 months have been a real struggle for me and I’ve managed to put 3kg back on. Not acceptable. This is not how I want to live my life. Maybe I should start scaring myself into losing weight!

I want to look like this again…..

Back in the old days with a friend!

Skinny Lynne!

NOT like this……

At my biggest... 😦

 

So, here are a few health reasons why I should take this more seriously:

1. I am at serious risk of developing diabetes. In a lot of cases, obesity is a huge factor in being diagnosed with diabetes and living a healthy lifestyle can go a long way to help prevent it. (Surely this alone would be reason enough to improve my health!)

2. Apparently there are various cancers that have been linked to obesity too (which frankly scares the bejeezus out of me!).

3. I am more likely to suffer from heart disease or have a stroke. The scary thing here, is that this already runs in my family, so you’d think I’d really make the effort to decrease the chances of me getting this.

4. Apparently being obese is very closely linked with Sleep Apnoea. I could stop breathing in my sleep, and in very severe cases it’s linked to symptoms of heart failure.

5. Joint problems are also a common problem linked to obesity. I’ve notices this quite often when I try to run or do something strenuous. I’m 27, for Pete’s sake and I have joint problems! Seriously.

6. Apparently about 40% of my body is covered and smothered in a layer of disgusting fat cells. I’ve been to one of those Bodies Exhibitions and looking at a diagonal slice through an obese person is enough to make you never want to eat again! (Although this apparently didn’t do the trick for me)

The list of health problems related to being obese or even overweight goes on and on. Surely theses things alone should scare the crap out of me, but no. I have this ridiculous attitude of “It’ll be fine….”. I’m in complete and utter denial when it comes to my weight. It’s as if I’m looking through tinted glasses and hoping that when I take them off, everything will be the way I want it to be. Surprise, surprise Lynne…..life doesn’t work that way. I have to do the hard work if I want to see the results.

I’m constantly making plans to lose weight, but unless I successfully act on them, I’m stuck. I’m not moving forward. In fact, I’m actually moving backwards at the moment. I know there’s a mental and emotional aspect to this too which I’m struggling with at the moment and which I’ll reveal in my next post.

In the meantime, I should probably print this out and stick it on the fridge as a daily reminder of what could happen to me if I don’t snap out of this and really DO something.

Rant over.  🙂