The End of Complacency….

So, I have some news…..

To cut a very long story short, we’ve had a major reshuffle at work, and I’ve decided to take redundancy. Eeeeek!! Super scary, but super exciting. I’ve worked in my current job for over 7 years and loved it, but it’s time to move on and put myself out there. Basically, I’m taking a giant leap out of my comfort zone and heading out into the great beyond….Basically, I’m terrified.

I know that I’ve made the right decision and I can’t even begin to tell you all how happy I am to make a new start. But every time I think about it, my belly does a very nervous flip and I’m reminded of the fact that I haven’t put myself out there for years and it really is a scary thought.

Now, I’ve said so many times that I really struggle with self-confidence and let’s face it – a general lack of belief in myself. Well, this has to change, and it has to change fast. In the next few weeks/months I’m going to have to go for job interviews and really sell myself. Strangely, I know I can do it. I’m scared, but it’s a good scared…..if that kind of thing exists!

Now, I know that having a hot and toned “bod” doesn’t magically give you confidence, but it does help. And as you know from my previous post, I haven’t been to the gym in ages and have only recently re-joined. So now, I have to really bust my ass and get some results. Not just for my health, and not just to help my confidence, but also to help me believe in myself and to know that when I set my mind to something, that I can really achieve it. To know that when I step into someone’s office for a job interview, that I can get through it and put forward my best side because I believe that all these things are not beyond my grasp.

I have been complacent for too long and I have made one promise after another to myself about what I want to achieve, and I have never delivered. Now, here’s the kick up the butt I’ve needed for so long. I’m effectively on the clock and time is ticking. Either I can or I can’t….

I know I sure as hell can and I’m going to prove to everyone and to myself that I can go out there, fight for what I really want and get it!

Reach for the stars and all that! 🙂

xxx

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So….

I’ve bitten the bullet and after 3 months of a pretty sedentary lifestyle (and indulgent holiday, might I add!), I’ve signed up to gym again.

After moving house recently, I had to cancel my previous gym membership as there was no similar chain close to me. Well, I’ve found an awesome gym just under a mile from our house, and am pretty confident that I’ll be going regularly. Reason being, is that I have 6 months to lose as much as I can (in a sensible way!) because I’m going home on holiday in April next year. My weight has always been such a big deal and I want to step on South African soil as “Cool & Confident Lynne”, not “I’m dying of heat because I refuse to take off my jumper for fear of everyone seeing my flabby arms and big pot belly Lynne”!! Well, that’s the plan anyway….

I’ve got my gym induction tomorrow evening and I’m surprisingly excited. It’ll be really good to do some exercise again. I’ve been feeling really gross lately and I know I have to get my lazy butt in the gym.

Also, I’m getting back into counting my calories on MyFitnessPal and logging my exercise on DailyMile. It’s good to have a routine to stick to and motivate yourself that way too.

I’m also fully aware that I’ve been saying all of this for a while and nothing ever seems to go anywhere, but I know I’m determined and I can do this. I don’t expect people to believe me, because I haven’t really earned that over the last few months, but all I can ask is….watch this space. And wish me good luck at the gym tomorrow evening…..I just know I’m going to be in all kinds of pain! 🙂