Why I’ve left Weight Watchers…

Today I decided to cancel my Weight Watchers membership. I know there might be some people out there that might not agree with this, but my reasons are as follows….

  • I can’t always find the time to attend specific sessions, which in turn means that I don’t have regular “weigh-ins”. I do try my best, but sometimes it’s just not possible to get to every week’s session.
  • I pay £20 a month for a service I can’t always attend. It just seems silly to pay money for something that I’m not getting a full service out of.
  • Their online weight loss tools are really effective, but I find that it’s not as accurate and user-friendly as I’d anticipated. I sometimes don’t always have time to update this every day, so end up missing days of logging food. This in turn is not an accurate record of what I’m eating every week.
  • The meetings were interesting, but in the long run, they weren’t as supporting as I’d hoped for. I’m not quite sure what I expected in the first place, but it wasn’t really what I was looking for. 
  • The “weigh-ins” were really helpful to begin with, but eventually I found them really demotivating. It always seemed that on the weeks where I’d be working really hard on eating right and exercising, I’d end up gaining weight. Then on the weeks where I’d been less strict with myself, I’d lose weight. It just got to the point where I couldn’t wrap my head around it, and they kept asking me if I was really following the program properly! I ended up feeling really frustrated and would turn to food to make me feel better.
  • Most importantly, I found that they didn’t really address a person’s relationship with food. It all boiled down to points you were consuming every day. Even if I was eating less healthy food, I’d just try to make sure I didn’t go over my daily points. And if I did, I’d just add them onto my weekly points and would sometimes even go over on those! It just seemed that I never really addressed my lifestyle in relation to food. I just ended up trying to cheat the system so that I could still eat what I was eating before and get away with it! 

Well, there are my reasons. I just want to reiterate that these are my personal views, and Weight Watchers might have worked wonders for others. Everyone’s different, and unfortunately this just never really worked for me. I tried, I really did, but it just wasn’t meant to be for me.

In the meantime, I’m still sticking to my gym schedule and am trying to address my issues around food.

Every day as it comes right?!

xxx

Stress + Frustration = :-(

The last two weeks have been super stressful for me. Without going into too much detail….I’ve got a super-duper important appointment coming up soon and it’s very important that it goes well. I’ve been really anxious about this for some time. I’ve been going over all my forms, etc. hoping that I have every thing in order. However, I think I’ve reached that point of calmness only obtained through knowing there’s nothing more I can do. It’s out of my hands now. Similar to studying for a test. You can only study so hard and then you either pass or fail and go from there.

Apologies for the rant, but I think I’m trying to justify why I haven’t written a post for a little while. I’ve been to pre-occupied with everything I’ve just mentioned, I just haven’t had any time/energy to condense my thought into a comprehensive post.

Besides the stress of the aforementioned appointment, I’ve been really frustrated with Weight Watchers. In the interest of full disclosure, I haven’t really gone to gym this last week, but I’ve been eating healthily. However, I’ve been putting on weight again! Now I know that to lose weight, healthy eating alone won’t cut it, but once I get this appointment out of the way, things will go back to normal at the gym.

Here’s the conundrum though….Over Christmas, I threw caution to the wind and indulged in all kinds of delicious food and more wine to mention. Over the whole of December I only picked up 1.5 pounds. I was prepared for a little bit of gain, so wasn’t too fussed. Then at the beginning of January (as promised), I went back to my usual healthy eating and I was caning it at the gym. So, I went for another weigh in, and in on week, I picked up 2 pounds!! HOW??

I don’t get it. I really don’t. How can living like a “slob” for a month end up with less of a weight gain than one week of gymming hard and eating healthy!?? It’s frustrating to say the least, and it makes me lose faith in the WW process.

Well, thanks for listening/reading……I’m sure things will be a lot better next week!

 

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2012….So Far!

So, what have I been up to lately?

2012 has been pretty positive so far, which is great. Although this week’s been really manic at work, it’s at least made the days fly past. I’m not trying to wish my life away, but being busy is always so much nicer than sitting at work feeling bored. I’m waking up every morning feeling really good about the day and you’d be surprised at just what a difference a positive attitude makes to your day. I’ll almost go as far as to say that when you’re thinking positively, the universe gives you back double! But that’s a debate for another time! 😉

As I mentioned in my earlier post, Goodbye 2011….Hello 2012, I mainly want to concentrate on CHANGE this year. I know that’s a pretty broad term, but it’s the simplest explanation for what I want to achieve this year. I want to change my attitude towards food and gymming; I want to change my lazy ways and get out more; I want to learn more; and I just generally want to change my attitude to everyday life. There are a few more things, but you guys get the gist of it I’m sure….

On another note, my first Weight Watchers weigh-in after Christmas was not as bad as I thought it would be. I only gained 1.5 pounds, which I’m hoping will be easy enough to shift in a week or two. However, my main weight loss aim for January/February is to hit the 10kg mark. Let me explain….Weight loss has been really slow for me over the past year. I’m super close to losing 10kg (in fact 2kg’s away!), and I feel that if I can just achieve that, the rest will get easier. That’s what I’m shooting for at the moment….the 10kg mark that eluded me in 2011!

I’ve even started the year with a bang, as I (finally) went to the Winter Wonderland in Hyde Park, which is something I’ve been threatening to do for years now. I took my new camera and played around with some settings. It turns out I need a bloody degree to operate the thing, but I’m excited to learn.

Fitness wise, I’ve been hitting the gym really hard (as promised) and even attended my first Pilates class at 8:30am (!) last Saturday. Let the record show though, that the main reason I actually got up for Pilates was due to the 7am “Wakey, Wakey” phone call I received from a friend. The kick up the butt really helped though! Apparently it’s called        “Tough Love”! Heheheeee I really enjoyed the Pilates though and will be attending again this Saturday…..

I’m also back to logging all my Weight Watchers ProPoints, and planning all my weekly meals. I cannot emphasise enough how much this helps. Just a little bit of organisation makes such a big difference to keeping your eating habits in check. I really recommend this for anyone trying to lose some weight. It’s one of the best tools in my arsenal!

Well, that’s all for now folks! As you can see, 2012 has been very kind to me so far. I just hope all this positivity lasts…..

I’ll leave you with a few Winter Wonderland pics I took and also some gratuitous Christmas 2011 photos too…..Enjoy! 🙂

Puddy giving me the evils!

Puddy guarding our Xmas Tree!

Our Silver Xmas Tree!

Winter Wonderland!

Bears at Winter Wonderland!

Winter Wonderland Roller Coaster!

More Rides at Winter Wonderland!

Balloons! 🙂

Goodbye 2011…..Hello 2012!!

Here's to 2012 treating me a little better....

It’s the last day of 2011, and it seems appropriate to think back over the last year and make new resolutions for the year to come. I recently wrote a post about my 1st year of blogging, in which I told how far I felt I’ve come this past year. Although, physically, I haven’t lost half as much weight as I’ve wanted to, mentally I’ve come a long way. Here’s a link to that post:

https://lynne2thin.wordpress.com/2011/11/30/one-year-on/

My personal opinion has always been that weight loss is at least 80% mental approach/attitude and 20% exercise and healthy eating. Once you’ve overcome the mental barriers that hold you back from really achieving what you want to, you can then put the physical wheels in motion. I’ve managed to mentally achieve a lot in 2011, and even though I still have a long way to go, I feel as if I’ve laid the ground work for really applying all I’ve learned to how I’m going to live my life in 2012.

So, here are a few resolutions I want to achieve in the New Year:

  • Go Large in January. Much to my own disgust, I really let go during December. I gave in to every food/drink whim and have managed to pick up 2kg again. In a month! So, I’m going to spend January doing a lot of gym work and really going lean on my food intake. I want to just kick things off so that I can get my head in the game again.
  • Races, Race & More Races! My enthusiasm for running really fizzled out towards the end of 2011, and I felt really guilty about that. I actually ran a 10km race and then just never did anything much after that. I’m really disappointed with myself and want to do better in 2012. I want to get back into the running groove and run a few more 5km, then definitely do another 10km and see how I go from there.
  • Be conscious of my eating. Since joining Weight Watchers, I have access to a lot of their online resources which includes food logging. I did no such thin during December and I want to get back in control of what I’m eating. I’m also going to keep planning my weekly menus and do most of my cooking myself.
  • Photography. I’m not sure if I ever mentioned it, but I’m passionate about photography. For my 28th birthday, my amazing boyfriend bought me a new Canon 550D camera. Needless to say, I was over the moon! I want to spend 2012 learning more about photography and hopefully turning it into a craft that I can hopefully make a living out of one day.
  • Learn something new. There are so many things I’ve always been interested in and I want to spend 2012 just learning new things. Whether that’s doing a course of some kind, learning to tango or just attending lectures that I find interesting. I want to stimulate the brain a bit more!
  • Volunteer. I’ve been wanting to do this for some time, but never seem to actually get to it. I’m very passionate about animals and our environment and want to help any which way I can.
  • Change. It’s time for me to make a lot of changes in my life and I think 2012 is the year for me to really do this. There’s a lot I want to do and achieve, and I want to really put my mind to making the changes I need. Whatever those changes are, I want them. And I want them really badly. Change is always good, right?

Well, those are (in a very vague and general way) my New Years’ Resolutions for 2012. What are yours??

Yay for 2012!!!

I WISH YOU ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR & I HOPE YOU ACHIEVE ALL YOU WANT TO!!

xxxx

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One Year On…

A little over a year ago, I started this blog. It was both terrifying and exciting at the same time and it was also one of the best things I’ve ever done. I look back at how I was feeling at the time when I started this blog and I feel so different one year on…..

About this time last year, I wrote my first ever blog entry titled “Sending this into the void….”. It was written full of hope and trepidation for the journey that I was about to start. Trust me, it’s a very scary feeling sharing your most intimate and self-conscious thoughts with the www! I was terrified of the reaction I would get, but it seemed that I had nothing to be afraid of. You were all so supportive and understanding which made writing this blog so much easier. I don’t think I’d ever be able to properly convey my gratitude for that, but I want everyone reading this to know how much every click or comment means to me!

lynne2thin started with the following slogan….“365 days to a healthier, happier me” and I can honestly say that a year later, at least part of that is true. I had a wish for my 28th birthday, which was to go out dancing in a polka dot dress (hopefully a size 10 polka dot dress). Well, I didn’t have the dress this year, but I sure as hell went dancing…..twice!

I wanted to include a few photos of me one year ago…….I think what strikes me the most is although I’m smiling in these photos, you can see how uncomfortable and self-conscious I am.

This was me at my biggest.....Just over a Year Ago!

Me and a friend at my birthday party last year....2010!

With another friend on my birthday....2010!

Here are a few pics of me on my birthday this year…….What I love about it, is that you can really see that I’m more at ease with myself. Two friends took me out shopping for a new top to wear to my birthday party, so I felt really great, and it shows! 🙂

My Birthday...2011! (And my awesome Hello Kitty gift bag)

Some of the dancing I was talking about....I didn't say it was pretty! 😉

With the girls at my 1st Birthday Party this year.....I celebrated a lot! 🙂

Although I haven’t exactly achieved all I wanted to this past year and I haven’t exactly reached my target weight, I wanted to share a few things with you that I have achieved…..

  • I smile/talk more. I know this sounds ridiculous and like something that everyone does, but that wasn’t the case with me. I’ve become more outgoing and am much more comfortable talking to everyone and anyone. I’ve also learned that a smile goes a long way, so I’m flashing my pearly whites as often as I can!
  • I’m more confident. In this regard, I do still have some way to go, but I’m feeling more comfortable with myself and in turn it affects my confidence. When I walk down the street, I can hold my head up high and it helps. Even this little bit of extra confidence I have, has had such an effect on my day-to-day life!
  • I’m starting to learn how to let go of the small things. This is still a work in progress, but I’m slowly but surely getting the hang of it. The things I think people judge me on, are in reality the things nobody cares about. It’s just my own self-consciousness speaking and making me feel insecure. Trying to let go of these little insecurities and every day issues is extremely liberating. It allows me to just be me, so take it or leave it!
  • Giving less thought to what others think about me. This is still something I struggle with every day and is sometimes much harder than other times. I’m a “pleaser”….meaning I want people to like me all the time. So, I constantly worry about what everyone thinks about me! Greg once gave me the following advice: “You are only in charge of your own actions, not those of others”. So, if I’m happy with the way I live my life, who cares what anyone else thinks?
  • Being more positive. This one I also struggle with a bit, but there really is something to be said for the power of positive thinking. I’ve found that if I tackle my day with a more positive attitude, I get more positivity out of the universe and I end up having a great day. Although some days are harder than others…
  • Getting healthier. The process is taking a little longer than I thought and it still doesn’t always come easy, but I’m getting there. In January, I couldn’t run for more than 3 minutes without having to walk. Now, I can easily run continuously for 45 minutes and I enjoy it! Something I never thought possible. I’m also making healthier food choices, but I do still pig out occasionally 🙂 In addition, I’ve joined Weight Watchers which has given me extra incentive to lose the pounds!
  • My relationship has improved. Let me just start by saying that Greg and I have never had a bad relationship, but my craziness and insane insecurities have, at times, put a strain on things. I’ve sometimes put words and thoughts in his mouth when they weren’t there, and that’s very unfair of me. The bottom line is, Greg is with me because he loves the person I am, not what I look like. If that was the case, I think he’d have left a while ago and I’d also never allow myself to be with someone who is that shallow.
  • I’m happier. That’s one of the true parts of my slogan….“365 days to a healthier, happier me”. Overall, I’ve become a more chilled out person. I’m trying to take one day at a time and be happy doing it. So far it’s kinda working! 🙂

Well, that’s what I wanted to share with you all today. So although I didn’t end up wearing the polka dot dress I wanted to on my birthday, I’ve already come such a long way and I’m happy with that.

I’ve still got some way to go, so please stick around for another year (at least….Hehehee!). I’ll keep blogging, so I really hope you all keep reading…..

xxxx

More Good News!

I’ve spent the last 2 weeks either working really hard or partying really hard. It’s had a pretty detrimental impact on both my brain/tiredness levels and also my liver. I feel as if I’ve finally had a chance to balance things out again. I’m getting back into my healthy routines and am starting to feel “normal” again!

The reason? I celebrated my 28th Birthday on Saturday and have been celebrating for just over a week! I’m not usually the type of person who “paints the town red”, so to speak, but I do every year on my birthday. If there is one thing people need to understand about me, it’s that I love my birthday. I go large! Why am I telling you guys this? Well, the healthy eating and loads of exercise flew out of the window a little while ago. Ooops! Also, I’ve missed the last two Weight Watchers meetings. One week was because I did a late shift at work and wouldn’t have made it there in time anyway, and the other was because I went to see Bob Dylan in concert. The other thing people should know about me is that I love Bob Dylan (I still find him attractive…is that weird?). So there was absolutely no way that I was going to cancel the chance to see Dylan to go to a Weight Watchers meeting!

Above is a YouTube video as proof of me attending the Bob Dylan concert! 🙂

With this little bit of background information, I’m sure you can all understand my trepidation of going to this week’s Weight Watchers meeting. The anticipation of finding out that I picked up a pound or two again during the last few weeks was enough to getting the nerves fluttering. Oh the shame! So with lingering feelings of guilt, I stepped on the scale and nearly fell off when the lady told me I’d lost 3 pounds (for those whose brains work in metric….that’s 1.3kg). I was in shock and even asked her to double-check! It turns out the scale was right the first time. Yay!! So, since joining WW a month ago, I’ve lost just under 3kg which is fantastic and I’m really pleased about it.

So, after my two weeks of “debauchery” I’ll be returning to my healthier ways and hopefully shed a pound or two this week before my next WW meeting. I would raise a glass to that, but my poor liver won’t have any of it! 😉

xxx

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Snacking…My Everest.

I’m writing today with a quick update on the status quo…..

I’ve spent the last two days at home being quiet. Very, very quiet. Let me explain……I woke up yesterday morning with no voice, so went to see the doctor. The verdict? Laryngitis. I’m a receptionist and my job entails speaking to people all day every day. So, as you’ve probably already guessed, Laryngitis and my job don’t really go hand in hand. Ergo, I’ve been at home for two days….

It’s very strange to be feeling okay, but just have no voice. I mean, I’m a bit head-achey, but otherwise I don’t feel terrible. My boyfriend, Greg, is loving the peace and quiet though. As he so eloquently put it…”a couple of nag-free days”. He’s even given me a new nickname….Larry Laryngitis. At least this is fun for one of us! 😉

Puddy & I snoozing on the couch yesterday!

Well, being off from work isn’t all perks. I’ve actually been a bit bored! Yesterday I spent the day on the couch watching day time telly (with the cat!) and just generally feeling sorry for myself. So, when I woke up today, I felt I had to do something…….I’ve cleaned the entire house (which really did take me quite some time), done some filing, read one trashy magazine, caught up with some correspondence and did some blogging. Not too bad, eh? The problem though is food. My usual habit is to snack when I’m at home. With this new Weight Watchers ProPoints system I’m following, I really didn’t want to ruin all the hard work I did last week. So today has not been easy!

Puddy helping me with my blogging!

I know it sounds a little crazy, but I think one of the reasons that I’ve kept myself so busy today is to keep myself from snacking. At one point, I even considered walking up to the cornershop for a bag of crisps or a chocolate! But it’s been really tough, because when you’re home alone you always tend to go for things that are the quickest and easiest to make. For instance, cheesy toast, pasta, pastry from the cornershop, etc….

Snacking has always been a problem for me. I think I’m only eating a little here or a little there, but it all adds up. And who ever snacks on anything healthy? Not me. If given the choice between snacking on some crisps or fruit, I will always go with the crisps. Always. That’s why staying at home with nothing much to do is so hard for me……inevitably, I will end up snacking. Mainly out of laziness.

So, I’m happy to report that I resisted temptation and remained indoors and stuck to my WW menu for the day. The amount of times I walked past the kitchen cupboards/fridge eyeing up the contents was more than I should probably admit to. So, I’m really pleased with myself for not giving in. It would’ve been so easy to lose the battle of wills between my stomach and my brain today, but today the brain won. Yay!

Snacking.....my Everest!

And to top it all off, I got a beautiful bunch of daisies from Greg to make me feel better. Although I think it might be a peace-offering to “Larry Laryngitis” and her no nagging. Either way, I love them and they really have made me feel better, even though I could only whisper “Thank You”!

xxx

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